(a) Friendship, right friend-wrong friend. Art favors, what if you like them but not their work. I look across at a friend and briefly consider how much I like them and their work.
Tim, writer, director, variety of forms and fiction- live art. The broken world- online game ‘Legacy thinker in residence’ at tate. Artist talk, expand on the form as makers- a conversation in public. An exchange of texts between Penny and Tim. (Tim needs a drink his mouth sounds sticky)
Unfinished conversations. Incomplete, tie this mess together.
The laptop is where I am. My ears prick up, I can relate to this.
This feels like a rather literary presentation.
Someone has died, it is describedas ‘since he fell out of the world’ an anecdote. His partner made discoveries,I have his laptop now I know everything. I found unexposed film in my father’s study. I cant develop them, I don’t want to know everything.
The form of the incomplete artifact. Pull anti-pull- coherence. Forster ‘Only Connect. (The eternal YES!). There is value in not connecting tho’, the separation between materials, separate narratives side-by-side remain unresolved. When the viewer does the work and connects then the work may become stagnant, dumb and without tension. I disagree, this is when it comes to life, understanding, observation interactio doesn’t kill work it animates it with new life each time. Etchells is so bright, so eloquent and prepared. A true performer and yet, I can’t hear his voice. Where is he. He asks Penny Where are you with time?
Penny is longing for a home. Disposessed, Hollis Frampton, Nostalgia. Its gone. All you have left is the drawing. Romantic, retrieval, restorations, fragments. Erasure.
Talking to dead people. I think of the big other, there looking over ones shoulder as one writes. (I couldn’t say my shoulder as I write…), I used to write a diary for posterity, to be found by someone, when I realised how boring this would be for them I stopped. Now I just write my dreams down. Whe Tim talks about the fictionalised audience I feel embarrassed and look away from him. I now understand that every performance I go to is not just for me. We address those that are not necessarily present. All the time, whether living or dead. Is not being there being dead. Being dead means not being anywhere, and yet omnipresent. Borges…I have the book, I still haven’t read it. Fragments create compulsion and invite interpretation. Like making notes. Will these notes not be really tedious? Sometimes artists can be so boring! Writing and being, by extension, is a form of ventriliquism..being a puppet with the voices speaking through you.
The plagarism text sounds great, like a big cut-up. Its easier in art, you cant work in a vacuum, nothing is new, nothing original. Liberate yourself from the idea you will reinvent the wheel, become known.
Death and the invasion of the mourner’s mind with ‘thoughts’ images, sensations. The place they used to be. It shrinks and leaves a little shrivelled scab.
I realise that in my copius note aking I wasn’t thinking, Tim you are invading my mind with your presentation. I will add thoughts later. He takes a drop of water. I remember what I was thinking when I saw you do that I thought, I’ll write that down, it counteracts the comment about the sticky mouth. I was frustrated by there being only one drop left in the glass I wanted Penny to reach over and fill up the glass.
The work does not come from nowhere. I agree, we are not blank slates, tabula rasa means scraped tablet, the must be traces of the previous document there, and we draw on top palimpestuously. I always liked that changing text piece, it was 4 pages in the Sheffield pavilion. I liked the editing, the self revelation. The changing fiction. When he says ‘the constant revelation of it’s own contingency’ I wish that I could come up with a sentence like that. Right now I wish I could do that to this text, go through, make changes. Sorry, this is what I am writing.
Trust ordered chance, let the book fall open. The books we keep closest at hand are possessed by magic. At my bedside is Marcel Mauss- a general theory of magic.
Penny enjoys- rubbing out, first marks, lawlessness. The texture of time on paper-things that pierce time, leonardos shopping list, the list my dad made the day I was born. Wash dishes, present for baby. Im tired though and my mind isn’t up to it. Down-time. Thinking, interpret your own thoughts, commentary. Half-baked ideas. I do some shading in on the page.